Sunday, March 22

When the muggles get you down.

So lately I’ve been kind of stressed. I mean I’m always stressed or worried about something but more so at the moment. And it’s not like there is anything huge happening in my life. Even last year when I was doing the Leaving Cert, I didn’t get overly distressed. I did have one or two minor breakdowns but isn’t that what’s expected when you’re told at 17 that you’ll have two weeks to do an exam based on everything you should have learnt over that last two years and the results will ultimately decide your life. Yeah, so with hindsight, I think I coped quite well. I did go on a chocolate binge around June though. It was blissful :)


Right now though, I just feel like I am under so much pressure. I constantly think that I am falling behind. Everything is just jumbled up. My mind is in disarray. I am letting these small little things get to me. I just have so much work, projects, assignments and a German oral to deal with. Just the other day I missed my first ever lecture and wasn’t able to pick up an exam paper to do over the weekend and now I’ve lost 5%. Not a huge loss but when you’re working your ass off to get a grade average over 75% to keep a scholarship I think I am allowed to freak out. But then I start to think… am I allowed to be worried about this? Something as mundane and minor as this? Because when you put it in retrospect of the world this is just a speck on the windshield. There are people starving out in Africa and children working in slave labour in India for god sake! How can I get upset about an assignment due in a week when I know that there is someone else out there who doesn’t even have the opportunity to go to school, not to mind reach college?


Then of course this makes me worry more about the rest of the world and feel terrible about being so selfish. It seems I’m stuck in this carousel of anxiety and guilt. So I wonder when is it okay to feel bad about something so insignificant? Like if someone close to you dies, you should be allowed to feel awful and upset even though there are thousands of other people out there who have lost a lot more than one friend or family member. Where is that fine line between arrogance and self-esteem?



Let’s face it, you are going to get upset. It’s inevitable. Whether it’s because your hair looks like crap or your dog died. Whatever the reason, it will get you down and make you feel like you have the worst life ever. While that’s probably no where near true I think you should be allowed your hour of self-pity. Because afterwards you might realise how stupid you were being. It’s okay to feel like shit sometimes but just remember that things will always get better. Just try not to let the muggles get you down.



Happy Blogging!
Marian  ^_^

10 comments:

  1. Oh those evil muggles at work again?
    I'd like to get all worked up on that child slavery in India but who am I kidding that's true..>_<
    Don't get stressed be happy and deal with one problem at a time :)

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    1. Yes. They're very busy ruining my contentment. *sigh*
      It's probably happening everywhere, just India seems to come to mind most predominantly for it. But that's a whole other issue I could rant on about for hours.
      Very wise words Neal :D now to put it into practise :)

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  2. Aww... I'm sorry the muggles are getting at you :(
    I'm always thinking about this, the fact that we're so fortunate compared to some people round the world...
    Well, muggles, stop housing yourselves within people's brains and be free :D

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    1. Thanks Kat :)
      Exactly! How can I complain when I already have so much?!
      Haha :D

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  3. No Marian! Don't let them use their weird muggle "magic" to torment you! As someone with an anxiety disorder, I understand worrying about small things that seem HUGE, and I know that it's a terrible feeling. I can tell you though that whatever you're worrying about won't last forever (it will pass), and it helps me when I distract myself from thinking about whatever is bothering me. In your case with school, I want you to know that I have confidence in you!
    Thanks for the reminder about not complaining so much about my life. I agree that we are so blessed to have all we have while others don't, but also it's totally alright to have your own little pity party for a while. I don't believe you're being selfish while worrying about yourself in this situation.
    I hope you feel better about everything soon!
    - July, http://julyaemmance.blogspot.com/

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  4. Aw, thanks July! Your comment is very helpful and full of advise. Thank You! I completely agree with you. Worrying is a terrible thing and can make life miserable. It's almost all behind me now though. I guess there's always light at the end of the tunnel!
    Thanks July! ^_^ x

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  5. I know exactly how you're feeling.I know that's not overly comforting, but I'm going through the same stresses with my schooling. I think we often feel guilty for feeling stressed out when other people are dealing with so much more, but that isn't right. No matter the size of the problem, everyone's emotional response has merit. Perspective is important, but it's okay to take a minute and acknowledge the validity of what you're feeling.

    My trick for calming myself down is to think of the worst possible scenario and how I'd deal with it if it happened. I know it sounds counter-productive, but it tends to help me put those huge problems into perspective. Also, I pray, a lot.

    Good luck!

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    1. Thanks Sunny! :) no, it's good to know that I'm not alone or crazy. You are so right! It's just difficult to see when that response is completely ridiculous compared to the problem.
      I don't that trick would work for me. In fact I'd probably start hyperventilating and get all paranoid thinking more horrible stuff will happen. But well done to you for being able to overcome it. Praying sounds like an excellent help but as a non-believer I don't get it.

      Thank you Sunny! ^_^

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  6. NEVER let Muggles get you down! Never let anyone get you down! It's probably one of the most important life lessons.

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    1. *nods in agreement* well I try. It can be difficult.
      Thanks ^_^

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